I prayed for favor; instead I got fired.
I had been on this journey for the past few years. I knew what I was called to and still pursuing that, but I had to pay bills and put food on my table, so I did what any sane person would do. Get a day job! I loved this job. It was fun and full of energy. I had the privilege of helping people feel wonderful in their own skin. It was a good gig. It paid the bills. I could still focus on my own business of helping non-profits and people tell their stories through events and film. Also, with the luxury of working outside of my normal day job hours, I could manage a handful of things.
Perhaps this was my chance to take off! Like a bird stretching their wings, or like a runner hitting their stride I can feel the momentum building and its just as exciting as it was when the original momentum of my business started to gain traction! Looking ahead I can already see where God is at work and how specific things are starting to happen, and I have the freedom to CHOOSE to pursue this NOW. I am thankful.
I cannot tell you the reasons why He doesn't answer all of our prayers in the way we expect, or even think we want; but I can tell you He IS sovereign and He IS still good. Romans 8:28 tells us "He works all things together for good, for those who love him and are called according to his purpose." And while some of the trials and happenings of life just seem unfair and way too much to bear, my only words to offer one in that place would be to let Jesus draw near to you. Let Him show you his love, and let Him have the reigns... I believe He will weave things to be an eventual blessing and provision in ways you cannot fathom. And until then by allowing yourself to draw near, press in to him and let him rework the tapestry of your life so He can show you the beauty He is capable of weaving together out of what you think is a total and utter mess! He is GOOD sweet one. He wants your best! Just as He does mine.
So, even in the prayers I don't get the answers I want for immediately, or the ones still on delay, I will choose to TRUST that God is still at work, and it is for our GOOD!