They Call Me Blondie

Totally freaked out.   I stand at the edge of what seems like a never ending drop.  In the fog and the haze, I look out past the horizon and hear whispers of something I recognize.   "Brave"  the wind whistles... its cold now, and although bundled in a sweater and warmth, the wind whips through and over the grasses with a chilling bite.  From atop the mountain it seems so far down... as you think of the long way it is to the bottom, which would certainly mean the death of you, the thoughts start to crawl in... Dont forget while you're here, they're there planning without you. . .  What are you doing with your life? . . .You stink at being a parent, a thrown together lunch because you forgot to get to the store  . . .   After so much strategy and efforts planning, what if the merger is a flop? . . . How will we ever have a child?  Where is the money going to come from?  . . .  Mise well be who they want you to be - its easier ...

"That Moment of your life when you have one foot in a fairytale and one in the abyss"  It's at the base, in the valleys, where all you see is the depths of hope and the longing for a prayer to be answered, that if you're not careful you will get stuck - right where he wants you; the enemy of your soul! It's cold. It's dark & all you can see is the unanswered prayers before you. Its almost crippling. But light shines through. You occasionally get glimpses of something beyond. You know there's got to be more! You long for that fairytale to unfold, and so you continue through the climb and as you catch glimpses of HIS beauty and God's creation: it gives you hope! He gives you views of what He is up to, and boy it is good. As the journey continues, to live in a constant tug-o-war between the two takes patience and perseverance. Don't get stuck looking down for too long, you may never see what he has past the horizon! He has plans for m...

I sit. I look down at my half-empty coffee mug and see the words "Orange County" written along the top of the mug with the image of a surfer catching a wave below it. (Yes, I'm drinking from the ever famous Starbucks Coffee mug collection and pondering life's deeper thoughts.) I look to the left and see my hot pink and neon-yellow running shoes. If only it were a better time to go for a run perhaps I'd be running out my thoughts and energy rather than banging on the keys for a better way to release the circles my mind is running into. I see a pearl earring and some hair coloring and then a whirl of life's deepest questions come to mind. Ya know, questions like: Where the heck is that other earring? Why do I always lose 1 sock from my running socks when I wash them? And, am I ready to go all dark and forever give up my blondness? Who will call me Blondie still? Okay okay, so they're not TRULY life's deepest questions, but it seems to be the the...